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When She Amtraked to Canada

                                    Christian Anton Gerard

because he screwed the elbow girl,
Wilmot took up photography— hay bales,
Mail Pouch barns, deserted farms,

fields needing a woman’s touch.
When winter came he shadowboxed

himself drunk on the back porch
shirtless and scared because approaching
thirty, like Indiana winters, can make

a man act like the full moon’s liquor
half fills his glass. Ripple couldn’t

save his old man in the cold woods
nor could it move the man from Bluffton
last week at The Plowman when Wilmot

wanted something unnamed. Not
a fight exactly. Maybe an exorcism,

more or less. Something all guts no skull.
The Bluffton man said he’d had a hundred
bales of mixture: Alfalfa, Timothy, and

Grass, second cutting, three twenty-five
per bale. Fifty cents more for Alfalfa

and Orchard Grass only, no Timothy.
Wilmot didn’t know shit about hay.
Wilmot’s grandfather was the Timothy

who built the farm, who painted the barn,
who willed his family never to sell,

but they did and Wilmot bought it back.
The Bluffton man was raving about
those bales, how he’d ripped off

some wannabe city shit turned farmer
and Wilmot, without a second thought,

threw his Pabst in the Bluffton Man’s face.
I don’t know what kind of god you know,
the Bluffton man said, but what you done

here today’s a sin I can’t let go. If that be
sin, which doth the manners frame,
Wilmot said,

if that be sin, which in fixed hearts doth breed,
he continued, staring in the man’s face, then
love is sin, and let me sinful be.

Then they were in it. No more words.
Wilmot didn’t know shit about fighting.

The man’s fists fell like snow—
the night a glitter-starred place. Wilmot
laughed and kept laughing. The man hit

and kept hitting, said, you better quit,
better quiet down. Wilmot laughed and cried,

then cried. The man bent over,
double fisted Wilmot’s denim jacket, spit
between his eyes and walked to the jukebox.

Back home Wilmot stood in the bathroom.
She would’ve looked him over, known the

unexplainable wild he sometimes needs,
maybe said, you’re smarter than that, while
he’d shake with satisfied shame like

an angelheaded hipster burns for the heavenly
connection to the starry dynamo. But she was

somewhere riding a silver bullet to somewhere,
so he walked outside, the snow like a womb,
and lay down in his naked, endless head.

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